Aiden and I have been writing some very dirty books together.
I hope you’re enjoying them. There’s heat and passion and fire on the pages on your kindle if you have because.
I need a cold shower after a writing session with that man.
We decided that it was a good idea to write together but not date.
He’s charming and determined to keep me charmed, but now he does it on the page.
Today I didn’t think would be any different. He came over with a Venti Pumpkin Spice Latte today because he knows I love them but try never to indulge.
“Let’s celebrate putting our new book in Angel Access so that even more of our readers will be able to grab it,” he said.
I was hyper aware of the word grab in there.
The hot coffee made me all warm inside.
And I realized.
I am lonely.
I’m writing romance as much as I can now because… well, I’m lonely. I wanted to make it work with my ex, but it so didn’t.
And I know 30 isn’t old. But I’ll be 30 this year and I wanted to be married and have kids before now.
Not to be all depressing. I blame my period! I blame the pressures of society on a woman turning 30!
And most of all, I wish I wasn’t like, venting, Angels.
I need to join the Alexis Angel movement for empowered women who don’t need a damn man.
But I spend more nights turning in with my keyboard than with a man. I just feel… not too great about it right now.
It’s not like I should jump onto Aiden because I’m attracted to him. He’s a bad boy, consummate lover of women and not who I should just saddle up to when we work together (Sorry Aiden) and like I don’t want to screw things up.
So I’ve decided that I need to treat this the way I’d treat anything.
Figure out a plan and enact it.
If I want a husband, well, I need to figure out what kind of man I want and do what it takes to find that kind of man!
So if you were going to describe your perfect man, what would you want?
For me, I think a sense of humor means the most to me. I want someone who gets me, makes me laugh, and at the end of the day I can just curl up with.
Sorry for how random today’s post is. I needed to vent and Alexis said, absolutely, but then I was so unhappy with this blog post I almost deleted it like four times.
But I feel like I can’t be the only one who thinks this way! And I want to take action, and be a strong Angel, too, so I’m re-activating my Bumble app and I’m thinking hard on making my future everything I want it to be.
Love you Angels!!